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Old 11-10-2018, 05:12 AM
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In 2014 I was down and out. Lost a great job in mid 2013 which fueled my drug and alcohol addiction. Spring of 2014 got a DUI and was really sick of everything. Wanted to disappear into the sunset and never look back. Heard it from all sides what I should do. General consensus was to get clean and sober and get to work instead of running from my problems. I did not. Kept partying and raising hell every chance I got.
As luck would have it, got another DUI in March of '17. Ok, enough is enough. Went into inpatient treatment for almost a month and took a total of 6 weeks off work. Got myself completely together and for the first time as an adult I'm clean and sober. Started using at 17 and stopped at 35. I'll be 37 next week and just passed my 20 month sobriety birthday.
I just got my old job back which means I'm financially stable once again. For the first time as a sober adult the future looks very promising. I've got a reliable cage, 2 nice softails paid off and a touring bike that will be paid off in about 18 months. Things are looking great for the first time in a long time!!!

With that being said I still have a burning desire to disappear and roam around. I have nothing legal hanging over my head and the only thing I have keeping me here is a house I owe about 40% of the value on.
I've been watching the motorcycle vagabonds on YouTube and romanticizing the lifestyle. Part of me knows it can be a hard lifestyle but part of me relishes the simplicity of it.
Have I lost my mind?
Old 11-10-2018, 05:50 AM
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Congrats on the 20 months.

Lots of temptation on the road. Personally I'd wait till 5 years. It took me a long time to get clean and sober. A good job, limited debt and responsibility will keep you straight. Much safer life choice right now. Just my opinion based on 35 years high and drunk and 10 years clean.

Old 11-10-2018, 05:59 AM
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Dude, you sound like a romantic! U suffer from a very idealized view of reality.
Old 11-10-2018, 06:10 AM
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Congrats on your new sober life!

I think you already know your answer to the question, your gonna get so many different answers here.

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Do it... Sell the house... Hit the road!

But wait until you retire.
You'll eat better.
Old 11-10-2018, 07:05 AM
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Congrats on getting clean and sober.
Wait a few more years before you decide to pack up and go. There is a lot of danger out on the road and none of it has anything to do with riding.
Where is your God in this?
Talk to your sponsor or another closed-mouthed friend about your ideas.
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Good luck and God Bless.
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Old 11-10-2018, 07:13 AM
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Congratulation on getting squared away. I've seen people go through it and it's not always easy. I just have one question though.

If you accomplished all that financial recovery since March of 2017 what do you do for a living, where do you work and can you get me a job there????
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Congrats to you for all you have been threw in your recovery. Thing about all you have been threw slow down crawl, Walk and Run but in case take it slower breath a bit get it in your head the faster you move the harder you’ll fall. Hope you put it all together soon.
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Thanks for the replies. I agree 20 months IS pretty early but I think it's for good. At the end I was totally depressed ALL the time. I had quit smoking a couple weeks before the dui because it was affecting my breathing and the coughing and wheezing just wasn't worth the high anymore. I was tired of the drinking at the end and the DUI sealed the deal.
I'm no longer depressed but I'm not exactly happy. I haven't gone the 12 steps route, don't have a sponsor or a higher power. I still hang out with my old friends I just don't drink or smoke. I have no desire to either. The fun was gone long before I quit.

I don't think I want to permanently live on the road but I do think it would be fun for a while. My new (old) job will provide me plenty of time off in the future I just don't know if a few weeks a year is enough to scratch the itch.
I DO know that I'm not gonna wait for retirement to hit the road. I don't exactly crave stability in my life. It's nice knowing I have some cash in the bank and all the bills are paid but having no debt and zero responsibility is quite appealing too.
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I would also recommend to err on the side of caution. Take some time to get better settled into the clean life. Plan your trips well in advance, research places to stay and roads you want to ride. Allow enough flexibility in your schedule to allow for weather conditions, or the unexpected.

Best of luck going forward !

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