My condolences to you and her family man. Doug is right though. Things will mend over time.
Just remember to be glad you were there to the last minute. I lost my grandfather 2 years ago to a sudden heart attack, and he was pretty much dad to me. He raised me and my sis. I had the chance to goto dinner that night with him and I skipped out to do a bunch of nothing. He died a few hours later. I really wish I would have gone now.
Sorry for your loss.
Thanks for the prayers and sympathy. I was lucky to have a good woman like her. It's been 8 1/2 weeks since she died and I did not think it would be this hard to handle. I don't know how I made it through the first week. Thanks again keep praying for me.