Went for a ride to collect my thoughts..
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Went for a ride to collect my thoughts..
Yesterday here in Ohio it was like 62 degrees, beautiful day. Had a lot on my mind and really struggling to think straight. The day before I had lost my loving beautiful wife of 29.5 years Angie to a 4 month battle with pancreatic cancer. I have never ever seen anything like this in my life of 52 years. One day we are living and enjoying life and the next in a fight with this nastiest stuff I have ever seen. She battled it until she passed Monday morning..I love and miss her so. Angie always knew when something was bugging me or just needed a hr or 2 away and she would say "Jump on the bike and go breath some fresh air..you will feel better..just be careful and I love ya" Well yesterday sitting here at home and trying to get things in order for her services I heard her voice say those exact words again, so I grabbed my jacket and headed out the door. While riding I tried to focus on all the great times her and I have had as well as the kids who are now adults that we are both very proud of. After about hour and half I pulled back in to the garage feeling better, still missing the love of my life but I know that spiritually she is still with me and will be always.
Guys I just needed to get this out as I know other folks have probably experienced the same thing. If some of you would please keep myself and the kids in your prayers as we try to get thru this difficult time. Ride safe!
Guys I just needed to get this out as I know other folks have probably experienced the same thing. If some of you would please keep myself and the kids in your prayers as we try to get thru this difficult time. Ride safe!
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Sorry to hear that. Can't imagine what you're going through. Wife and I are getting older and the few times it's crossed my mind have been too awful to contemplate. Selfishly my hope is I go first to avoid the pain you're experiencing. I know well and good your wife is with you even though it's hard to feel it. Thoughts are with you.
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Takes an honest / humble man to post what you have. I am 52 as well and will have been married 33 years to my only wife this next August. I can't imagine to begin to fathom the pain and loss you are dealing with at this point in your life. These days, being married for as long as you both enjoyed is very rare...especially with the same partner.
You will be included in our prayer time this evening before dinner. Like you, our kids are grown up as well, on their own and its just us now. Fortunately we are able to spend quiet time every night together. I pray you will find comfort, so mote it be. So sorry for your loss. Beautiful bike by the way.
Godspeed.
You will be included in our prayer time this evening before dinner. Like you, our kids are grown up as well, on their own and its just us now. Fortunately we are able to spend quiet time every night together. I pray you will find comfort, so mote it be. So sorry for your loss. Beautiful bike by the way.
Godspeed.
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Sorry for your loss. I understand what your going through. I just lost my Mom last month to cancer, as well. One day she's shopping getting her hair and nails done and the next thing you know she's gone. It happens fast. I wish you the best. Take care.
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My thoughts are with you Ashnic.
As one who has been through the same scenario myself, I know it is one of the most difficult things a person can face. No one can comprehend unless they've been there. When my wife passed, it ripped a big chunk of me away. The future we planned....gone.
I am no longer the same person I once was. Still, not a day goes by that she isn't in my thoughts.
Your post also resonated with me because the loss of my wife of 37 years to stage 4 colon cancer 4 years ago after a three year battle, is what got me back on the bike. To collect my thoughts. I think it saved my life because i was starting to drink heavily and become anti-social.
If you ever need someone to reach out to, to one that has "been there," feel free to shoot me a PM.
As one who has been through the same scenario myself, I know it is one of the most difficult things a person can face. No one can comprehend unless they've been there. When my wife passed, it ripped a big chunk of me away. The future we planned....gone.
I am no longer the same person I once was. Still, not a day goes by that she isn't in my thoughts.
Your post also resonated with me because the loss of my wife of 37 years to stage 4 colon cancer 4 years ago after a three year battle, is what got me back on the bike. To collect my thoughts. I think it saved my life because i was starting to drink heavily and become anti-social.
If you ever need someone to reach out to, to one that has "been there," feel free to shoot me a PM.